arseniccyanide asked: Are you happy with your body? Like do you wish you were bigger/smaller or are you content? Not trying to be rude I'm just curious
It has substance.
And that’s a problem.
Which is a very negative attitude to have and the wrong answer and wholly destructive but I’ve come to terms with it and that’s just my normal. I’m not going to sugar coat it. I have a lot of rage and anger directed towards my body. A lot of fuck you I hate you get the fuck away from me.
I am extraordinarily uncomfortable with the idea of having a body. Especially a female one.
I try to pretend that it doesn’t exist.
And I’m stubborn and don’t care enough about myself to play nice. I’m angry.
inserttrendyname asked: Okay, so, I know if you took requests for your shop, you'd say so, but could you please consider putting out a Courtney Stodden t-shirt? I can imagine I wouldn't be the only one that would go nuts over it if you did put out one. It's no big deal if you don't want to, the prints you offer are great anyway. Thanks! :)
I would love to make a C-Stod shirt.
For myself and others.
I just need to find the perfect picture.
jumpingonair asked: If the agency offered to give you a contract if you gained 12-15 pounds, would you do it? what if the agency were IMG/FORD/WOMEN etctera?
Imagine an agency asking someone to gain 12-15 pounds.
mello-tron asked: Apart from buying heels and tanning (I assume you are trying that for casting, correct me if I'm wrong), are you planning to do anything else to prepare yourself for open casting call? And are you going to wear wig as you normally do (even though they might want to see your real hair)?
I don’t think I’d tan for it, honestly. They can always ask me to tan later but being all hey sup I’m rill pale just to let them see what I actually look like would probably be best. Like how you aren’t supposed to wear makeup, and are supposed to wear a simple tank top and shorts/jeans. Plain plain plain.
And I’d go there with the weave in but if they asked me to take it out to see the mess that is my hair I would proceed to sit the mongrel on my purse like a faithful pet.
I kind of just expect their reaction to me being something along the lines of “….ahhhooohhhkay…”
But I can’t get the way that lady talked to me out of my head.
She was so fucking serious and curt and did not pay me a single compliment, which makes me feel all the more weirdly real about it. She didn’t even smile. Have you heard of this place. You should go to the next open casting.
I felt like I was being given orders and it was very “yes ma’am” kind of dumbfounded oh god.
Young Paris practicing her poses.